Borrowed Body

All summer I rode on a borrowed bike

with a borrowed helmet and a borrowed lock.

My lungs gathered luminescence

and I grew lean around them,

riding long and light.

The wind blew in off the lake

in heaving hot and cold.

Miles out, lightning stung the water,

we lay down in the dark in the storm.

Your mouth was a thundercloud,

our bodies moved like the rain.

We left the beach with sand in our socks

as the fog drew strings around the moon.

With itchy breasts and damp tangled hair

I understood how it is to be a woman:

To pass through things, to be passed through,

To take what does not belong to me

and build it

into this body.

finally summer

In the last hour of morning

everyone pretends to be asleep,

lying still and heavy as the rising heat.

Finally

your hand reaches from your sleeping bag,

finally

I feel your fingers on my shoulder blade,

they move like a mouse beneath drying leaves.

I am as patient as a seed.

Our eyelashes are the dark fringes

of ferns in the forest

as we pretend to be asleep.

The lake tosses, a fitful dreamer,

summer sprawls open-mouthed.

A cicada calls.

It is the pause in the air

before we kiss.

Cicada

A cicada, newly risen, navigates my skin,

beneath the soft unhesitating touch

I too stretch my wings.

We have both lain for so long untouched,

now we unfurl knobbly and new,

fresh and unfolding.

Does the soil ache as cicadas are borne up bursting?

Summer is a weight on my thighs,

a soreness in my most hidden bones.

(sun)

In the morning we shared a mango
as pulpy and yellow as the sun.
The world gleamed with a summer sheen
so we sat outside and let the leaves
cast shadows on our hangover eyes.
They cast shadows on themselves.
How self-contained, those trees,
how quietly they gather in the light.

We were pass-out-drunk the night before,
the drunk of scholars sick of words,
the drunk of getting lost, eating snakes,
falling down steep banks
where the railroad meets the river tracks.

And all those cups of coffee drunk from styrofoam,
what chemicals did they leave in our bodies?

My friend, you laughed
when I kissed the eyelid of your drunk left eye,
it fit on my lips like the lips of a bottle.
For once we did not speak,
and they found us asleep on the kitchen table,
lying side by side.

Vocabulary

Is it platonic or plutonic? you ask, every time imprecise until I reply,

though really we are neither, how can we be,

our eyes half-closed, awake too long, poorly packed in tired skin,

improperly defined.

We lie on the porch, two lumpy cigarettes,

watching the ions of the air.

The snow is too slow for your patience, you say,

All other words plod off on peripatetic feet.

Each phrase floats face down,

silences pass like quicksilver suns.

Are we made of shadows or fire? Magma or perfection?

Really we are neither, here

on the penumbra of perception it is so late, here

your hand is on my sleeve.

I am cursed by your propinquity,

whatever that means.

Fire Alarm

Certainly we had been up all night

filling our mouths with bread and cheese and cinnamon,

gargling with the stars.

And certainly we had made sure the stove was off,

the pilot light burning low

like a moon on the horizon.

But when our fingers touched

the fire alarm began to ring,

sprinklers sent the whole pajamed house

stumbling out to the sidewalk.

They stared incredulous at our

wild wakeful eyes.